Saturday, September 27, 2008

My Thoughts of Late


Weakness is determined by one’s character that finds fault within them… negatively. One can healthily look upon his or her own soul and decipher the devil within, and humbly force the evil connotations out. When an individual is on the high and rocky road to improvement, the Lord will allow the weaknesses of man to be made known unto him. Many times in a painful remedy, which will further mankind’s glorious refinement in a slow process.
The weakness comes to a realization when an individual is willing to discover imperfections to their own character. Many people may soak in the pride of their hearts with their complete ‘so called’ perfection, while in the absolute opposite realm; others struggle while placing every weakness and fear upon their own person. One type is to ‘puffed up’ to notice imperfections, while another has the tragic blinders of self blame. A balance of realism and being kind to one’s own self is imperative, in becoming a stronger person in the Lord.
Weakness is a state where one realizes that all must rely on the Lord. Not only for the relief that we need to encounter in this hateful world, but for the need of a Savior and our ultimate dependency on Him. All that breathe, function, and comprehend are based on the power of the Almighty God; which is funneled through channels of agency to prove what will be done with His unfathomable power.
Weakness is ultimately not knowing and understanding the character of the Lord. Not knowing the Lord leads one to not knowing and understanding the individual’s own innermost soul, capacity, and potential of oneself. Accepting our own weaknesses and imperfections we leave our mind’s door open to criticism, mistakes, and sometimes the Lord’s chastisements. We become and desire to be His. Therefore we can change and become more perfected through the Atonement of Christ. It's hard. But well worth the refining.

Fall College Life!


Life has been really Crazy in the World of Lauran Miller! I have been really busy just trying to stay afloat during this crazy time. I am currently a student at BYU-Idaho and have a full load of classes while still managing a job at Porters a local craft store in town. I work about 25 hours a week and I am taking 19 credit hours with hopes that I will soon graduate in April to move on to bigger and better things in life! Not that things aren't big and better now-- but they will only get better with time! I'm excited about life and I love to stay busy and meet lots and lots of new people in college! It's a fantastic time to be alive!

Trapped in the Mormon University!


Trapped in the Mormon University
2-18-08


Jerusalem
The weather is grey
Rain pounds wide windows
Inside finds pockets of warmth
People lounging, giggling
Reading…or pretending
Walking through halls
Wandering room to room
Hearing varieties of music
On disc and live
Topics of conversation drift
Sleeping bodies hide in apartments
Heat turned up 25-30 degrees Celsius
Wind sweeping through corridors
Anxiously waiting
For something… anything
Dinner